When you have chronic lyme disease, it’s really really really hard to get better.
I went to Envita Medical Center and was there receiving treatment through my port for 4 months. Basically you sit in a lazy boy and they pump antibiotics and nutrients into you through your port. I highly recommend getting a port if you will be doing IV antibiotics.
This has been a really hard post to write.. my experience there was so difficult and made me feel like I was dying at some points.. but now I’m walking!
I’ve been home for over a month and now I’m walking and driving by myself when just a month ago I was in a wheelchair. I can’t help but think I can thank Envita for that.
I spent my whole time in treatment thinking that it wasn’t working, I felt so sick the WHOLE ENTIRE TIME.. but people kept telling me that after I got home and stopped the IV’s, things get better.
Physically things have gotten better; I’m walking, my nausea is gone, my brainfog isn’t as bad, my pain is less, and my shaking and tremor are gone. Yet emotionally and mentally, I am struggling.
My anxiety is through the roof since coming home, and my depression reached it’s peak. I can barely get out of bed most days i’m so sad. I miss everyone I met at Envita, and miss having that understanding every day. I had something to do every day and people to talk to.. now i’m back at home living with my parents, with no friends in real life.
These are the nurses being silly, I love them all so much. Part of me wishes I could stay there forever but at the same time it was a horrible journey.
I’m having a hard time finding stuff to do that distracts me.. i’ve tried breathing, crafting, drawing, blogging, swimming, walking, nothing distracts me. Nothing kills the horrible anxiety in my body.